Anorexia Emails: Dec. 3, 2021
The following is the first in a series of my (only slightly) edited emails sent to friends and family documenting my anorexia nervosa (AN) rehabilitation, first at Westchester Behavioral Health Center (NYP) and later at the Columbia Center for Eating Disorders at the New York State Psychiatric Institute (NYSPI). I was diagnosed with AN in October 2021, along with generalized anxiety disorder, and entered treatment December 6, 2021.
My recovery is, of course, ongoing. Since I returned home from NYSPI on March 1, 2022, I’ve been participating in a study called REACH + Relapse Prevention for Anorexia Nervosa. It acts as a tailored, 6-month relapse prevention program for participants.
Dec. 3, 2021, email sent from Fulton, NY:
So, over the past few months (maybe year?) I was exercising lots, more than usual, and losing weight, and I kinda got anorexic. My weight has been pretty low since like July-ish 2021. Around that time I also got diagnosed with depression (now on a small dose of antidepressant) and 2 weeks ago found out I’ve got hypothyroidism (just started meds). I was getting panic attacks and had such little energy/motivation from like Aug-Oct. 2021.
That’s all the gritty/bad news. The good news — I feel a lot better now, and have been visiting doctors, counselors, dietitians since Oct. when I got back to Fulton, and was even getting some counseling treatment while in Florida.
The professionals I’ve been talking to in Syracuse say I need to go here to NYP — https://www.nyp.org/locations/westchester-behavioral-health-center. I’m on board, but scared and nervous. It’s really strict — no razors, monitored showers, no internet, phone, etc. and the scariest part — they are going to feed me so that I gain weight.
I was on the waiting list for a few days at NYP then got a call yesterday that a bed opened up and I need to be there Monday at 9am. Mom and Dad are driving me down.
That’s the current outlook. If they get an emergency call over the weekend I may lose my spot, but at least I know how immediately this can all happen. I’m going to take the positive thought that everything will work out for Monday.
That’s about it! I’m actually having a really nice time here in Fulton. It’s like I wouldn’t want to be anywhere else :) And that this is simply a part of my experience here on earth.
I don’t desire platitudes or ‘get better soon’! (please), just hugs and support — and maybe calls/communication to my parents and sister who could also use the support!!
Hugs xoxo. Love you all